Mercy Triumphs over Judgment

But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.” Matt 12:36-37

This Scripture alone should shake us up.  How many idle words have you and I spoken (or written, I would add)?  We serve a holy and awesome God, and no one in the flesh can stand in his full manifestation of glory.  The intense light emanating from his very being would burn us up.  There is no one righteous, no not one.  We all reap the wages of sin, and without Yeshua having received the full penalty of the law of sin and death, we would not be alive.  It is only by God’s great love that we are set free from the law of sin and death and can come boldly before him to obtain mercy and grace in time of need.

Isaiah experienced a vision of God after a major king of Israel, Uzziah, died.  Uzziah had become king when he was sixteen and during the days of Zechariah, who instructed him in the fear of the Lord, and as long as he sought the Lord, God gave him success. (2 Ch 26:3-5)  After he had become powerful, his pride led to his downfall, and he offered unauthorized incense before the Lord.  He became angry when a prophet rebuked him, and immediately leprosy broke out upon Uzziah. It was in the context of this national disillusionment that Isaiah had this vision of the Lord upon his throne.  He saw the seraphim above him calling out to one another, “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty, the whole earth is filled with his glory,”  and the doorposts shook and the temple was filled with smoke.  Isaiah was undone and cried out,  “Woe to me, I am a man of unclean lips amongst a people of unclean lips.”  He could not bear to stand in the presence of such holiness, for his eyes had seen the Lord Almighty!  Then one of the seraphim took a piece of coal from the altar and touched his lips and declared that his guilt was taken away and his sins were atoned for. (Isa 6:1-7)

We are in a season of testing and refining.  Major leaders have fallen, and many have become disillusioned and cynical.

But who can endure the day of his coming? Who can stand when he appears? For he will be like a refiner’s fire or a launderer’s soap. He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver; he will purify the Levites and refine them like gold and silver. Then the LORD will have men who will bring offerings in righteousness, Mal 3:2-3

How are we to respond when we see those whom we trusted fall into sin?  How did Abraham respond when the Angel of the Lord came to him and announced the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah?  He pleaded with the Lord to spare Sodom and Gomorrah even if there were ten righteous people.  He cried out for mercy.  And Moses and Aaron fell on their faces to plead for mercy when God was going to destroy the Israelites and God heard their cry and relented.  In like manor, we are to guard our hearts and speech  while crying out for mercy.  It is only when we are deeply aware of our own sin, like Isaiah, that we can begin to have mercy for others. God does not let the guilty go unpunished but his kindness leads us all to repentance.  David sinned by counting his mighty men but he entrusted his punishment to God instead of men as God was full of mercy.

David said to Gad, “I am in deep distress. Let me fall into the hands of the LORD, for his mercy is very great; but do not let me fall into human hands.” (I Chr 21:13)

And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, “The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation.” (Ex 34:6-7)

Yes, justice for the afflicted must be pursued but let us take this time of shaking for an opportunity to examine our own lives and to learn intercession like Abraham and Moses.  Lot and his family were spared though Sodom and Gomorrah were destroyed, and God preserved the children of the Israelites to go into the Promised Land. In like manner, there is coming a time when God’s wrath/judgment will be poured out upon the nations who invaded Israel and those who engaged in horrendous acts of antisemitism.  We are then to stand in the gap and cry out for mercy, for all have sinned.  God has bound us all over to disobedience that he might have mercy on us all.

Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment. (James 2:12-13)

But I tell you that anyone who is angry with a brother or sister, will be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to a brother or sister, ‘Raca,’ is answerable to the court. And anyone who says, ‘You fool!’ will be in danger of the fire of hell. (Matt 5:22)

You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. (Rom 2:1)

God “will repay each person according to what they have done.” To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger. There will be trouble and distress for every human being who does evil: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile;   but glory, honor and peace for everyone who does good: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile. For God does not show favoritism. (Rom 2:6-11)

We all one day will have to face the judgment seat of God.  Because I recognize my dire need for mercy, his forgiveness for every idle word I have spoken, for every time I was angry with others, or every time I harbored bitterness or entertained unclean thoughts, I therefore cry out.

BLESSED ARE THE MERCIFUL, FOR THEY SHALL OBTAIN MERCY.

The Love of God

Dan and I just returned from a powerful conference, Greater Things, and we were blown away. All the speakers were of high caliber and exhibited such humility and “Messiah-likeness.”  And the worship was electrifying. The presence of God was palpable, and Yeshua was exalted above all. It is hard to put into words. How can one describe the Grand Canyon?

On Friday night as I was crying out for a deeper revelation and experience of the love of God my heart exploded with new understanding. One of the main speakers, Francis Chan, gave a powerful message on the love of God. He gave an illustration that when we think of the most intelligent person alive, it is a no-brainer to attribute to God an even greater intelligence that is “beyond beyond”—incomprehensible. The same goes for when we imagine the most powerful person in the world and compare him to the awesome power and majesty of God. However, when we think of the most loving person we know we get hung up. How can God be more loving towards us than our friend, or spouse, or parent?  Then Francis went on to explain how we can only comprehend the love of God in the context of His community of believers. Only together with them are we able to comprehend the depth, and width, and breadth of the love of God that is in Yeshua. Our hearts have to be strengthened in order to grasp his great love for us.

So many of us have a hard time receiving God’s love because we consider ourselves unworthy. We have a tendency to focus too much on how far we fall short. I thought of how in a marriage it sometimes takes a while for each other to be confident in the other’s love and often requires proof of the other’s love. Understanding the teaching of the five love languages often unlocks the spouse’s ability to give and receive love from the other. For example, one of my main love languages was serving, and Dan’s was words of affirmation.

It was not until Dan got this revelation that he understood that I felt most loved when he served me by taking care of the children or doing the dishes. I think that sometimes we need to comprehend that God ministers to us in all of the five love languages (serving, giving, affirmation, quality time, and touch), and what we need to do is to identify how he conveys his love to us. One of the biggest of God’s love languages is giving.  “For God so loved the world that he GAVE…” Then the light bulb went on. God loves us so much that he gave us apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, and teachers to equip the body to do the work of ministry (serving, loving, encouraging, etc.,  and he also GAVE gifts (faith, prophecy, healing, words of knowledge, etc.) to reveal his great love. The gifts of the Spirit are for the building up of the body, for mutual edification. God supernaturally meets the needs of his people in the context of community. He heals, delivers, empowers, helps, and encourages us by expressing His great love through others.

I hope you can grasp this. It is only through a functioning body of believers ministering God’s love that we are able to gain understanding of His great love that is incomprehensible.  Together we grow in unity and into the fullness of the Messiah. As God’s Spirit is poured out this will become more and more the reality in which we live. Those who isolate themselves from a local body are cutting themselves off from the nourishment that can only come from living in a community of believers in a context of eldership.

Scripture says that if we receive a prophet we receive a prophet’s reward. If we receive the members of His body, we receive the benefits of community life—God’s love expressed through each member. As we grasp this truth we will be able to receive His love in an even greater measure. God gives us gifts, people, to show us His great love!

 

Does Time Heal All Things?

There is a statement that is often repeated when someone is walking the journey of grief.  It is: “People are wrong when they say that time heals.”  They say this in response to others who say that time heals all things.  However, I would like to declare that in time, God does heal the brokenhearted.  For some God spares a person from a long season of grief and for others it is years.  For me, 22 years after the loss of our 12-year-old son, I can honestly say that God has turned my mourning into dancing.  The pain of grief can crush us but in the process of pressing into God, an aroma pleasing to God is released.  As when a crushed rose emanates a sweet aroma, so too when we go on after a great loss and continue to worship God declaring his goodness.  These times of clinging to God despite the great pain becomes a living sacrifice to him. 

In time my heart did heal as I yielded to God along the journey.  Though I still miss Sammy, my mourning has changed.  I get glimpses of the pleasure God has smelling the sweet aroma coming from my life.  “It is well with my soul.”  My thoughts have turned from dwelling on the pain of loss to the joy of being reunited with him.  The veil between heaven and earth has become very thin and grief has become part of a seamless garment….a life that encompasses birth, joy, pain, loss, death, and rebirth into a new heaven and earth where there will be no more pain or death or sorrow.  It will be a glorious time of meeting God face to face and a time of reunion with loved ones.  How I long for that day.

Extravagant Love by Patty Juster

By Patty Juster

A strong young man stood by a gold gilded table pouring over some parchments.  He seemed deep in thought as he glanced back and forth from the table to something outside his palace window.  “Everything seems to match up perfectly with the plans my father gave me,” the King thought.  He could remember that day years ago when his father excitedly told him what was in his heart.  In fact he could see his father standing by this very table with him by his side and could hear him speaking those words that became permanently etched in his mind.  “Solomon, I am old now and soon to pass on the way of all those before me.  For all my life I have served my God faithfully and wholeheartedly.  I had in on my heart to build him a temple, a permanent resting place where he could live among his people forever.  For hundreds of years my God has dwelt in a tent and his presence has led my people all these years.  But now that I have found a home it seemed fitting that my God would have a place where he could dwell forever.  Yet, God said that I had shed too much blood and had been a man of war.  It would not be right that I should build him a house so he has chosen you, my son, a man of peace, to build him a temple.  Now Solomon, I am giving you the plans for this great house, the plans I have received from the hand of the Lord.  You are still young and will need help to succeed in this great project.  I have provided you with my gold and silver, with my merchants and craftsmen, with my fine timber and fabric.  Everything you will need I have provided you.  Now be strong and of good courage.  Keep your heart pure and follow your God with all your heart, being careful to obey him in all things.  In this way, he will make sure your kingdom will endure forever and you will never fail to have one of your seed on the throne.  This great temple will be a blessing to our people as well as to the stranger and alien in your midst.  When they pray here, God will hear their supplications and will grant them peace.  They will find rest for their souls for His glory will dwell is this place.  I bless you, Solomon, in the name of our God.  May his face continue to shine upon you.”

The King folded up the parchment and went to the window again to get a better look at the finished magnificent temple.  Then his attention was drawn to the sound of hundreds, yes even thousands, of cattle, sheep and goats coming down the street.  His heart leapt within him as he headed for the stairs.  Solomon did not want to miss the days of celebration ahead when he, the priests and the people would dedicate this dwelling place of his God.  As far as his eye could see he saw shepherds guiding their flocks and herds towards the temple gates.  Months ago he had ordered his herdsmen to prepare 120, 000 sheep and goats along with 40,000 bulls for this special occasion.  Each animal had to be perfect. 

Enough priests had to be trained and dedicated for performing the sacrifices.  Servants had to be brought in to help tend the animals and to clean up after them.  This was quite an undertaking, larger than anyone could remember.  In Solomon’s and his father’s mind, no sacrifice was too great to express their love and commitment to their God.  Zeal for His house consumed them…they somehow knew through the Spirit of God that millions would benefit from what happened here in days ahead.  They were not serving themselves but future generations.

In front of the multitudes of people and animals were the singers and musicians praising God.  A hundred and twenty trumpeters were blowing shofars…dancers were joyfully expressing their worship, and thousands of people along with the priests were shouting and praising God as one, “God is good and his mercy endures forever.”  As they were worshipping, the priests began to lead the animals one at a time to the slaughter.  Each one had their throat slit and their head was tilted back so all their blood could be drained out.  God said that the blood belonged to him as the life was in their blood.  Thousands of buckets of blood poured out…enough to make a river.  Carefully each animal was skinned and its carcass was cut and prepared according to the law of the temple.  Blood splattered all over the priests white robes.  Sacrificing animals was not a neat job, neither was it pleasant.  The work was tedious and hard and required great strength and stamina.  Only by God’s grace could such a large number of animals be sacrificed in such a short period of time and without the priests fainting from fatigue.

The altar fires burned day and night for weeks and a sweet smelling aroma went up before the throne of God.  Worship and praise continued along with the all night vigils.  The excitement kept building as willing hearts gave all that they had.  Before the last sacrifice was completed fire from heaven came down and consumed the offering and once again the Temple was filled with a cloud of glory.  The priests could no longer enter and perform their services.  They and the people fell with their faces to the ground and continued to worship with adoration too deep for words.  Overcome by such extravagant love, they had no more strength to give.    Each breath then became an offering to their God. 

LOVE IS PATIENT

The old man stroked his beard as he stood in the middle of the road.  His eyes squinted in the bright sunlight.  It appeared that he had done this many times before as his eyes were deeply grooved with wrinkles.  Evidently, he was waiting for someone to come walking down the road.  The neighbors could be heard from time to time gossiping about this old man’s foolishness.  It had been 15 years since his son had left him, and never had he heard a word from him.  He could be dead, for all they knew.  Yet, this old father faithfully stood at the crossroads every morning and night, leaning on his wooden staff.  Every now and then you could see a trickle of water run down his sun worn cheek.  After a few minutes he would turn around and slowly shuffle his way back to his stone house.  The appearance and style of the house reflected the great wealth this old man had.  Many fields of olive trees and grapevines surrounded his estate.  He owned much fertile land and it bore him an abundant yield.  Yet, in spite of all the comfort his money could buy, his heart was heavy.  His friends taunted him and said his son would never return and that he deserved to die for treating his father in this fashion.  But the old man would not listen.  He knew in his heart that his son would one day return.

With such depth of kindness in his voice, the old man would often retell the story again and again of how his son grew restless.  But he would never dishonor his son and tell others how his son no longer wanted to be stuck at home and be told what he could and couldn’t do.  He and his father had had many conflicts and his father never saw things his way.  The young man thought for sure that his father favored his older brother more than him and he felt that he could no longer trust him. 

Feeling a deep isolation from the rest of the family, he thought that the only recourse would be for him to leave home and experience real life away from all those who would seek to control his life.  He somewhat boldly approached his father and asked for his inheritance early.  The wise father knew that he couldn’t demand that his son stay with him, as he was a man now.  Though the father knew in his heart that his son’s decision would bring him to ruin, that he would spend his money foolishly, he had to release his son to follow his own heart.  By giving his son freedom the old man knew he willingly took on the grief of daily bearing the concern for the well being of his child.  He would suffer the consequences of his son’s choices and when his son hurt, he would hurt.  Such is the cost of love, and the price of freedom.

The father grabbed hold of his son and hugged him strongly, speaking quietly into his ear that he will always love him no matter what he did.  He told his son that he was always welcome to come back and live in his house.  As the young man walked down the road, he never even turned to wave good-bye.  The old man just stood there with tears in his eyes, and seemed to stoop over as he pounded his chest, “my son, my son, why have you forsaken me?”

Now, fifteen years later, before the sun was fully up, the old man once again stood in the road and stroked his beard, leaning on his weather worn staff.  This time he saw movement, someone walking far into the distant.  Slowly, the man moved closer and the old man’s face began to quiver.  He threw down his staff and began to run toward the man walking toward him.  Yes, it was his son…he knew that one day he would return.  As they approached each other his son fell at his feet and wept.  “Oh father, I have sinned against you and against God in heaven.  I do not deserve to even be a servant in your household.  Please forgive me and allow me to come be your slave.  I was such a fool and have wasted your money and threw my life way through sinful living.  How could you ever forgive me?”

“O my son, you were dead but now you are alive!  Come, here is my ring and put on this robe.  I more than forgive you, I embrace you fully as my son.  You will eat with me at my table.”

“Servants,” he shouted back towards his house, “kill a fatted calf and prepare a feast for my son.  He was lost, but now he is found.”

“Let me look at you,” his father cried, “I have waited for this day and now it is here.  You have really come home.”  Then the old man with tears running down his face could not stop kissing his son.

LOVE WEEPS WITH THOSE WHO WEEP

A large crowd of women and children were huddled together, trying to keep warm.  Their thin coats provided little protection against the late autumn wind and rain.  Many could be seen striking their folded arms against their bodies to try to stimulate blood flow.  The gray sky accentuated the bleakness of the occasion.  The Gestapo had rounded up the women and children from several barracks to witness the punishment of three young boys who had stolen bread from the camp kitchen.  Several women could be heard whimpering softly so as not to bring the wrath of the guards down upon them.  None of them chose to be here this morning.  But these were the “lucky” ones, depending on how you look at it.  Many of their train mates were herded down the road to the showers and to “better” barracks, so they were told.  But these women knew better, they had heard rumors about the gas chambers and crematoriums.  The daily stench never let them block these thoughts from their minds.

This morning, just like every cold morning, they have dealt with these horrors the same way that their bodies dealt with the cold.  They became numb on the inside just like they were becoming numb on the outside.  Shouts could be heard coming from some guards off in the distance.  Apparently, some women had refused to be a part of this scene and now were suffering the consequences.  There were a few screams, a couple of shots, and then there was silence.  No one flinched.  They were used to this by now.  These outbreaks were a daily occurrence. 

It seemed like they were standing out in the cold forever that morning while they waited for the guards to bring the three boys.  But, finally, they could see them coming around the corner of one of the barracks.  These poor boys had hardly any meat on their bones…just like the rest of them.  It was not fair that any of them should have to experience such evil and degradation.  Their eyes were glazed over and it appeared they were already dead inside.  What was about to happen only solidified what already happened months ago when hope disappeared.

The guards pushed the boys on ahead of them until they reached the gallows in front of the crowd of women and children.  They all knew what to expect, they have seen this before.  Each boy was put on a chair, then a noose was slipped over his head, and with sordid pleasure the guards kicked the chairs out from under each youth.  The noose soon tightened around their necks and they began to gag and gasp for breath.  They did not die quickly, as their necks were not broken as they were in usual hangings. Their mothers, in witnessing their agony, fell to the ground.  They yet had enough life left in them to grieve bitterly for the loss of their child.  One mother could be heard groaning, and shaking an angry fist at God, “Where are you?”  Somewhere in the crowd a voice called out loudly, “God is right up there hanging with your son.”

Yes, this was true.  God knew that in creating man with a free will, it would cost Him as well man great pain and suffering.  He was willing to bear this pain and suffering that would result from the evil choices made by fallen man.  The holocaust represented the price of freedom.  The cross represents the cost of love.  Within the heart of God, before man even set foot on this earth, God bore the pain of all the sinful choices, and yet, knew his great power was able to bring all of creation history into conformity with glorious purposes.  The Lamb of God was slain from the beginning of the world and sits in the center of the throne.  The Lion of the tribe of Judah has triumphed.  Because God weeps with those who are weeping, great glory can be brought out of great tragedy.  We do not grieve as those who are without hope.  We have a savior who identifies with our every tear.  How great a love the Father has for us in that he sent His only son to hang on a tree for us.  We do not suffer alone.

God’s Project of Freedom Patty Juster

By Patty Juster

All see you were wrong about the people you loved
The men you created, in freedom you beget them
Now they are jeering and mocking with great ire
Their eyes blackened, raging they strip you
Plucking your beard, a crown of thorns your head they adorn
Blood oozing, your tears grieving and they knew not
Centuries of caring in a moment perfect love betrayed
The demons shouting, “Freedom was a mistake…such evil,
Your plan comes to an end. Your wisdom, like your blood,
Spilled and trampled on, despised and not cherished
For the man you created turned on you and proved
Love has not triumphed, and hatred has shown her strength

Such darkness thickens the air
Hope is buried beneath your cross
What now? Will there be a new project, some new fancy?
Scratch this one, wipe out man, begin anew
Perhaps a man without a will who hugs upon command
One who you have bound, not able to rebel
He would have no choice, but he will love you still
Is this the bride for your son, a bride who does what you demand,
One whose passion is programmed, never to abate or abound?
Just think, no more evil, no more pain, only a faceless man
Each one like the other, in heart the same

Two days of groaning and agony, exhausted from sorrow
The watchers sigh, staring off into the vast abyss
He promised victory so life has got to offer more than this
Then beneath their feet a trembling begins
Birds aloft flutter, chirping a new song
In unison announcing death is not the end
Flowers bursting into rays of many colors
Proclaiming out of this God-seed new life has sprung
Love has triumphed o’er the grave, now who was right?
Freedom now seen as God’s excellent design
A bride is formed in the midst of suffering
Claiming all the pain worth it because of the Lamb
In the center of the throne now ruling
His great power assuring we will overcome
And the great romance of the groom will woo her
Perfect her, and present her as his queen
Mature, willingly choosing to believe
Her groom is good, nothing will from his arms snatch
Love has proved stronger, the price of freedom paid

Happy Birthday, Sam

By Patty Juster

Happy Birthday, my son,
Of what age are you now?
At twelve you were taken,
Almost three years ago
That makes you ‘bout fifteen
Or has God made you old?

How do you look,
His glory clothes now you wear,
Are there whiskers on your face,
Do you sniffle and sneeze?
Have you grown many inches
In stature do you stand tall?

Do you remember your mom,
Her loving embrace to feel?
Does He tell you of my tears,
Or does His joy blinding you
Now forget all earthly woes?

When I get there, will glory
Cover the great loss I bear,
Or does pain of memory
Cling to eternities robe
Some spot time cannot remove?

How can I send gifts to you,
My son, how shall I wrap it.
Now that you have everything,
Need you still tokens of love?
Who will blow out your candles,
May I make your birthday wish?

Do angels wrestle with you,
Faking weak to show you strong
You once loved to pin me down
Counting to ten, marking air
So the world would then know,
For one brief moment, your strength
Has now overcome your mom

Holy Unto the Lord Patty Juster

By Patty Juster

Alone, set apart, unto my Lord He does woo me
This grief, heavy to bear
Choking, screaming, crushing
Now inviting me, he says, “come follow me”
A highway of holiness, no wild beast does dare walk
God’s rod, his staff, does comfort me still

Awake, oh Spirit, the will to live
Beckon me come, to your river to drink
Your life, my soul to embrace
Tho darkness blackens, the light dims
Yet you are there, in nearness kiss
The tears that fall, the chest that heaves
Your hand does calm the quaking flesh
Your whisper does my ear brush
I hear you say, “You are mine, do not fear.”

My son not dead, but live to you
Life’s long time line, eternity waits
In a twinkle, my eye shall behold
Your beauty, my son, his life enfolded in you
Glory’s gate does open, the warmth of your face I feel
Hope springs forth, my heart to heal
My work not done, your strength through me yet endures
A future waits, you need me still,
Your love to carry to empty tombs lingering

It is not to the living but to the dead you do send
Others to know your grace will bring them through
In no bad thing, from your love does depart
Tenderly calling, “Come aside, come live with me.”
There you feed us with ravens divine
You alone, our bread, our breath
Arm in arm you lead us,
Together we will walk
Alone in the garden, from your delights we do receive
This world’s not our home,
In your comfort we are renewed
There we will walk,
There we will talk,
And then,
We will be no more
“And Enoch walked with God, and then he was not.”

Hope Born Patty Juster

By Patty Juster

Oh hope, not yet born
Does your heart still beat
Your strength ‘bout forlorn
Do I feel your feet?

A Sono does tell
You’re not yet dead
But vitals not well
Hope has gone to bed

“Wake up,” the bells ring
“Stay there, you’ll turn cold.
Try, make your self sing,
You can do it, be bold.”

New food will restore
Take, eat, new life brings
Then when done, eat s’more
It’s nosh fit for kings

Now drink cool water
Revives the waned will
Courage won’t falter
You’ll have “nuff” to fill

In pain, hope is birthed
Hold not back, it’s time
With joy round me girthed
Push, I hear the chime

Angels have waited
New glory behold
God’s Son, joy sated
Faith has come forth gold

Hope Springs Patty Juster

By Patty Juster

Wild geese honking, coolness creeping o’er the forest glade
Leaves telling stories of soon redemption.
In quiet waiting, the bulbs planted
Thinking of better times, of days lengthened.
Birds chirping, with babies gaping
Asking how long ‘fore hope does peeking come.

In secret the buried seed does sleep
Waiting for warmth to come knocking,
Speaking gently, “Wake up, wake up, it’s time,
Stretch forth you arms, and beckon the day.”

Up they pop
Soon to be dressed in fine silkery
T’will bring delight, others enjoying
Not long now, colors bursting
Painted crimson, purple and yellow.

But in the night waiting, watching for the light
A deer, walking gently does spot
Tasty morsels bursting, from earth’s plate growing
The beast comes eating, joy expecting
Now gone, was this in vain waiting?

All life like a flower appearing,
Springing today, yet tomorrow passing.
Some dying, ne’er a glory beholding
Cut off before its story telling
All creation groaning, waiting,
A time when no tale be cut short,
But spoken fully while love blossoms
Never more to wilt or abate.
“I am here to stay,” let angels sing,
“For He has made all things lasting.”

My hope become born, will not wane
All tears sealed up, in a box cherished
Like jewels one day His head adorning
How precious, He watches over them with care
A remembrance of days long past,
When darkness ruled the day,
And beasts trampled future aspiring.

In agony we faithfully watched,
His promise breaking through the night
Ringing through the heavenly spheres,
“It is finished, now come join the light.”

Intimacy by Patty Juster

The longing to be inside each other, to be intimately close, is innate within each of us.  When I think of the closeness I have with my husband I crave even greater intimacy.  It is not enough to have the nearness of sex as one can be making contact physically but be miles away from each other in their thoughts.  Oneness comes from knowing how the other thinks, processes his world, and feels.  It is truly being able to “eat” up the other person so they are on the inside of you and you inside of them.  It is like living in a shared body.  Perhaps the best way of “eating” another is by listening very carefully to the words spoken by another, and receiving them into you.  It is cherishing what another says and asking questions so as to find out who they are.

When I think of what God says in Deuteronomy 8 about how he caused the Israelites to hunger so they would know that man does not live by bread alone but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of the Father I can substantiate this analogy of words spoken and bread.  It is not enough to eat good physical food for the health of our bodies; we also need spiritual food that comes from the Holy Spirit through touching others.  I think that this is why meal time is so important.  It is at the table when we are eating physical food that we can also eat of each of other as we share our hearts with each other.  When we look at our words as being food for another I think it gives us a holy fear of not speaking words that are not good for the listener.  If we gossip, speak evil of another, complain, speak foul words, etc., we are feeding harmful food to all who hear.  And, if we hear bad words from others our soul is contaminated as well.

I can take this analogy even farther.  If others feed off of me and vice versa, than my withholding “food” (words) in a act of self protection can deprive another of the banquet that is inside of me.  So, in revenge for having been hurt I can vow not to share my thoughts or feelings with another who has responded in a perceived or real sinful way toward my personhood.  In other words, if I experienced rejection then I reject in return.  If death is really separation from each other either physically or emotionally, than our refusal to “feed” each other (reject each other) starves a relationship so it dies. 

What does it mean in Scripture when it says we do not belong to ourselves?  Do we really have the right to choose who we are going to open our heart up to or not?  Shouldn’t God be the one who is the gatekeeper of our heart and or our words?  Do we have the right to withhold food from the hungry?  He will distribute our “food” according to what is needed by another and he will give us grace to put the unwholesome “food,” that is spewed from another’s mouth, in the garbage can so we do not have to eat it.  We do not have to let bad words affect our souls.

Our words are real food as they represent the life or death that dwells within us (life and death are in the power of the tongue).  The Lord’s Supper conveys this imagery.  Yeshua told his disciples that his flesh was real food and his blood was real drink.  He said that if they did not eat of the bread then they would not have life in them.  He claimed to be the bread of life that came down from heaven to give life to all who eat of him.  So how do we eat of him?  We listen to his words and obey, taking heed.  Just as the Father was in the Son and the Son was in the Father, so this is the oneness God wants with us and for us to have with each other.  Yeshua was the Word that had become flesh and dwelt among us.  His Word can become written on our hearts; they can become alive within us and become food for our soul.  As we partake of the Lord’s Supper we are renewing this reality and are actually receiving life and strength.  We enter into the deepest communion with the Holy Spirit and each other as we partake of the same “loaf.”  We become one as we share even our sorrows and joys on the deepest level.  It is the fellowship of sharing in his suffering that qualifies us as his sons and co-heirs with him of the Kingdom!